Mia had been deteriorating over the last few months due to old age. Last week she lost her ability to stand up. She spent her days horizontal & grew completely dependent on me to hand feed her food & water & carry her in an upright position to relieve herself. She was so stiff from arthritis that she would call on me every few hours, even through the night, to turn her over.
Her chronic arthritis had finally taken its toll on her & no medication or painkiller seemed to help anymore.
She was in a lot of pain and I had the painful task of making the decision to have her put down. The hardest part was knowing that all that was failing her were her bones. And because of that she had lost a lot of muscle mass. Her blood and all her organs were in perfect working condition.
I kept postponing the date as her spirits appeared to have picked up for a few days, but her great fighting spirit appeared to be shortlived. 2 days ago she stopped eating her food. I knew that her condition would deteriorate at a rapid rate from then on.
I could never imagine my life without her; my best friend who's seen me through my darkest most lonely times.
It is the end of a chapter of my life and as a result I feel a void within.
I miss her unconditional love.
I miss her dedication.
I miss feeling her presence.
And although I have been blessed with beautiful supportive messages through SMS, Twitter & Facebook from friends & acquaintances & even people who have never known her - it doesn't help to lessen the emptiness i feel.
Everytime I'm asked : "Hi Sa, How are you doing?" my chest collapses, my heart feels crushed and tears well-up in my eyes
I've had her since she was 7 weeks old and she passed away 11 weeks shy of her 12th birthday. Like me, Mia is a Tiger / Taurus.
This year was meant to be OUR year.
Now what?? I am now incomplete.
Whether you like dogs or keep pets, Mia touched all those who knew her. She has a beautiful soul and it is that which I hang on to
My faithful companion, my soul mate.
You may be gone, but you remain in my heart for eternity.
I miss you Mia.
